So nice to meet you and so glad we connected…
I believe many of us are in or have been in a place in life that we aren’t completely fulfilled. We often can’t put our finger on what we want but we know that where we are just doesn’t feel right. We often blame ourselves, instead of understanding our SELVES with compassion. Well that was me about 4 or 5 years ago, until one day I finally decided to Choose Me.
My story goes a little something like this…
My story began as a NY Italian-American and like any old Brooklyn Italian family, there was lots of family, love, tons of food, and even more food getting thrown with dishes being tossed. My childhood was chaotic, or like I was once told, “passionate”. So when I grew up, I did what any unconscious creator would do and found myself a nice, crazy, chaotic teenage love relationship to mirror exactly the way I felt in my childhood.
We moved to NJ when I was 11 years old. I always played it small and never allowed myself to really stand out and own my power. Then, from about the ages of 16-19, I was in a verbally and emotionally abusive relationship. There was chaos ALL THE TIME. I constantly tried to rescue my ex-boyfriend and save him from all his issues, just as I did in my childhood for others. I kept everything that I dealt with as a kid to myself and never thought of it as a big deal. I watched other people get most of the attention and rewards, and I just accepted that it just wasn’t for me. I sent the message to my Self that I wasn’t good enough. So, I attracted just that at my first attempt in romantic love. I didn’t allow myself to be seen in this relationship, mirroring how I felt as a kid. One day though, I finally realized I deserved better and got myself out of the dysfunctional relationship because I knew I deserved better. I didn’t like the feeling of dysfunction and yearned so bad for a normal love and teenage experience.
I was free from ex for about two weeks to only be married within 6 months of ending that relationship to someone else. I was married at 19 and had my first born at 20 years old. We were married for 16 years with 3 amazing kids. After getting divorced, my journey into extraordinary healing and transformation began. I realized I would always have my Self to rely on so I better get to know her and become best friends with her. I did just that. Today, I realize I really am a BIG deal! I finally stopped playing it so small and now take pride in how awesome I am. I allow myself to accept positive attention and consciously own it. I learned how to create the life of my dreams and manifest my wildest desires.
This is my story. It is a story that I now own and love, which took me a while. I get teary-eyed just thinking about how proud I am for all that I conquered to be as successful as I am today. I now see opportunities in all experiences. My inner purpose and passion is connected to my outer goals. I live in awareness and consciously create. Today, I am thriving in my own skin. I align my thoughts with my new belief system. I show up for my Self and continually nurture my Self. The four main goals that I had for myself after I got divorced were self-love, romantic love, a house by the beach, and a career change. I had no idea how I was going to get from point A to point B, but I can proudly say I freakin did it! I shifted my life to create one that matches who I am authentically. This is my definition of The free Life.
In reading this, I want you to feel proud and to own your own story. I want you to accept yourself, all pieces of you that made you into who you are today. The power is within to free yourself from any emotion that doesn’t serve your highest good any longer. Allow only love to take its place instead. You will realize many of your beliefs are truly not who you are, nor are you who people tell you that you are. You are beautiful, powerful beyond your wildest dreams, and ready to create the life you deserve. It all starts and ends with love. Loving yourself and loving all the experience that have brought you to land on my website today. I already love you. Thank you for allowing me into your world and listening to mine.